mr. darcy
i had a dream about mr. big.. my good friend miss jane said this:
you are fixated on him (to use my freudian psychology).
you see him as the ultimate be all and end all of a man you want to be with that no-one can surpass though you have thought others could - it always goes back to him - the benchmark and your fixation - you have not emotionally moved on from the time you were with him and need to.
i know you have tried to deny this with your behaviour - like going crazy in bed with men, staying celibate and you have tried to have a relationship and though so far they haven't worked in the traditional sense, one will soon but you are still fixated and idolise him in too many ways though fewer as time goes on.
he is on the pedastal he has no right to be on - look at someone who you admire, could be a star, celebrity, person you know - and put them in his place so that you can see that as unrealistic to have someone up there unless they are someone who deserves this adoration and love and he does not but you won't replace him -
you are only remembering the good things and not all of the bad stuff...you must replace him with someone unattainable and of true value so that you can look at the attainable around you and take them on....
sorry biatch but we'll all have an intervention with you soon....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
so i choose mr. darcy a.k.a Colin Firth.
why? he's always played the dashing man, soft yet powerful, sweet and cute, passionate and oh so sexy with that english accent.
take me and ravage me already mr. darcy!
i need someone like him - not in an unattainable way, but just someone who will be loyal, loving, stable, fidelity in heart, will give security that i also crave for.
and i want someone who will definitely love me just the way i am
ok, so i made a list of exactly i want and need from a man/relationship - it will be posted soon and i'm going to be realistic about it, so there's a lot of revisions to do and consolidating -
meanwhile.. tell me, did you have a list.. or did you go with the flow.. and when you did go with the flow did it work?
all i know right now is this:
I am attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled and free.
In love, I feel most alive when things are straight-forward and i'm told that i'm loved.
I'd like my partner to think and feel that I am loyal and faithful.
I would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
My ideal relationship is lasting. I want a relationship that looks to the future... one I can grow with.
I care about society and morality. I would never break a commitment.
I think of marriage as something I've always wanted... though I haven't really thought about it.
I think of love as something I thirst for. I know that I'll do anything for love, but I also know this time around I won't fall for it easily.