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06 February 2012: i woke up with dried tears still in my eyes and emptiness still riding my shoulders...

observations for today

but there are no tangible traces of this day, which is perhaps as it should be.


like a bad dream, one that creeps in and out of your consciousness for days afterward, but a dream nonetheless.


and when people look at me, they have no idea... when i say i have a headache, they believe me...when i say i'm fine, it is their cue to turn their heads around and walk away...


and i will just stand here a little while longer, because i don't quite know where to go...


i have no regrets... but there are things in life i'd like to trace back and do again...

IF ONLY...

...i said yes when he asked to meet me.. i would have been the rightful chosen girl.


...i listened and handled my finances well, i would be on top of things


...if only i was happy for someone when he needed me most in the special time of his life..



...if only i kept myself busy with other things and met people in real life rather than hiding behind a computer at times...


... i wasn't too stubborn to take my mothers advice...


...if only i can trust and have faith in men again, i would open my heart whole heartedly... feel that power of risking every inch of security i have known for a very long time...


...if only i can yell out right now to everyone...
i am ready...


to ponder on

there are times for if only's.. and also a time for i should have done.. but there are also time for I'M GOING to...


this year i didn't do a list of resolutions.. it's just hopes.... that sometimes are not met .. too many excuses why it didn't happen...

but today.. i resolute.

every choice i make will be vital from this point..

i'm physically, mentally and emotionally tired.

as of today.. i resign from all my excuses.

I WILL RESOLVE THINGS THAT MAKES ME UNHAPPY

how about you?

'JAPAN FACTS Population: 127.6 million (UN, 2003) Capital: Tokyo Major language: Japanese Major religions: Shintoism, Buddhism Life expectancy: 78 years (men), 85 years (women) (UN) Monetary unit: yen Main exports: Vehicles, computer parts, chemicals, scientific instruments and watches Average annual income: US $35,610 (World Bank, 2001) Internet domain: .jp International dialling code: +81' That's a lot of people on a small'ish island!! What makes me happy is thinking of sleep at the moment... am i tired or what... ok ok i'll add a more serious comment next time promise!
- posted by David [email]

We strive to change what we cannot change we live to face each day, we live to be resolute in our lives what are we ? We are Human ? So live each day to the fullest face your challenges with composure and Dare to challenge thy Fate...... Ken McMahon 2004
- posted by Ken [email]

it's very true...sometimes i feel the same way...although i have a lot of things that would make other people happy...i still feel incomplete...there are some things in my life that i would love to do over...but i wouldn't be what i am today and i wouldn't have the things that i have today...i still have time to do things that i want...and the first step was taking driving lessons and hopefully, a lot of "i'm going to's" are gonna be fulfilled after that... and i thought i was the only one that was feeling a little incomplete...
- posted by yoohoo!, only me

a little imperfection goes a long way ;)
- posted by anonymous

i just had a "what if" experience over the weekend and it hit me that i could make it into an "i'm going to" moment. i have this bitch of a sister-in-law that always says rude remarks to me and who just does things that are just insensitive - i never retort back because per the request of my husband, he wants to keep the peace within the family...so for 5 years i just bit my tongue everytime she said or did something hurtful. Well, finally, this past Sunday we celebrated my husband's birthday at home. We only invited his side of the family and ofcourse the bitch had to be in attendance along with her 2 daughters (one was 4 yrs old and the other 2). The adults were in the family room watching a basketball game while the kids were left unattended in the formal dining room where I keep my china. I was upstairs in my room at the time because I wanted to watch something else on TV. Anyway, I heard a loud crack and went downstairs to check out what caused it - I saw one of the bitch's daughters (the 2 yr old) holding my antique tea cup. I went slowly to her and took the teacup out of her hands and to my horror the freakin tea cup was broken. I was so upset and fuming mad. I didn't yell at the kid or smacked her because I knew she didn't know the pain she had caused me and I knew it wasn't my place to scold her for it. My mother-in-law also heard the cracking noise and saw that I was upset with the incident, she took the cup away from me and showed it to the adults in the family room. I went upstairs and tried to calm myself down, I was going to let it go...but I realized....again? No way, man. This is my home and I wasn't going to let that bitch get away with it. So, I stormed downstairs and as I came in the family room the adults were passing the teacup around to see what happened to it. The bitch said in a nonchalant way that she was sorry for what had happened....I could've just taken it for what it is...but all those years of hurtful words and actions were all I could think of...and I told her "No, I don't accept your apology. My house isn't childproof and you should have been watching your kids instead of watching the game. YOu should have been a responsible parent." From that moment, I felt relieved - ofcourse, the bitch had to leave after that but who gives a flying f#$k! Ahhhhh, anyway I have no regrets. I told my husband that I know I disappointed him by not keeping the peace but if the bitch's feelings are more important to him than mine then he could also go. He's staying he said.
- posted by yvonne (your cousin)

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