YOUR THOUGHTS
06 February 2012: oops he did it again
observations for today
fuck this shit. i did the rightful things this time around. i was friendly. i was patient, i was kind.
and for crying out loud - i just dont understand this at all - normal kind of FRIENDS DO NOT DO THE FOLLOWING:
1. you don't call me 3-4 times a day, just for sweet nothings.
2. you don't sms me that much as well.
3. you don't talk with normal friends for hours and hours a day.
4. you don't talk about the amazing factor, the interesting side, or the fact that you know there's a good connection out there.
5. you don't make her feel lead on.
6. you don't have sex with her in the first place.
7. you don't say promises you can't keep.
9. you do not tell her you're addicted to her.
10. you do not provoke sweet moments.
11. you say the lovey dovey things comes with an emotional relationship.. well fuck you, do not touch me like i am yours. do not kiss me. do not be sweet and make me feel like there's a future for this.
12. you do not make her cry.
so here's a song dedicated just for you - (well maybe not the burying part.. but this is how you make me feel right now)
DISTILLERS, THE | Dismantle Me Lyrics
I fancy you but I've been destined to,
and all i know disolved,
I could never reundo you,
I will always say it's so,
I will always speak the truth,
Descend into a noose
I could never re-undo you,
I want to bury you
I want to bury you
Vultures circle around,
Feathers float,
Wings flap,
Beaks pound.
And though my heart's exposed,
I could never reundo you,
I will always bleed the truth,
I will always speak and know,
I was sent to cut you loose,
I will never reundo you,
I want to bury you,
I want to bury you,
I want to bury you,
I want to bury you,
Dismantle me,
Dismantle me,
Dismantle me,
Dismantle me,
Unless it's warm and humid on swanston street,
And the air is filled with electricity,
And the sky is deeper than the dream,
And the sky is deeper than the!!,
Dismantle me (I want to bury you),
Dismantle me (I want to bury you),
Dismantle me (I want to bury you),
Dismantle me (I want to bury you),
And the sky is deeper than the dream,
to ponder onyou always said, you didn't want to go further because if things go wrong the friendship is gone and you didn't want to hurt anyone.
no more excuses of saying that i'm different from the rest of the girls.. in essence, you've just treated all of us the same way - i might have been on the good pedestal, but you've all treated us like whores.
well guess what, you lost me anyway.
no more excuses.
Ok, i may not have been there, but i have been in this relationship from the start... since YOU walked through that front door.
I have listened patiently to my sister, a rather inexperienced fool of a girl, go on and on- whether she should be in this friendship - relationship, whether she should fall again.
Well, i said yes, maybe this guy is different- he seems ok, he may hurt you but that's a risk we all need to take- i had no idea you would DISRESPECT her in this way- if i had seen that in the future- i would have told her to stamp your scrawny pig ass in the ground.
You are worthless, i don't give a shit that you are "in a bad time in your life" what, aren't we all? It all depends on how strong a person you are- and obvisously you haven't the emotional strength or morality to hold a feather with both hands.
You haven't shown my sister sweetness, and attention and the love she deserves, all you have done is hurt, deceive and shown yourself to be a coward, a liar and an all round old fashioned "loser of the year". MY sister has been great, listening, waiting patiently for YOUR (ie yours and her) time to be, only having her hopes smashed yet again by an inadequte man.
I only have one good thing to say to you, you have shown my sister that she can feel this way again, even through the pain, she can find happiness in a man worth of her love.
AND BARBARA... REMEMBER MY ADVICE, we are here before the men, the men may buy us gifts, give us some lovin, and some times we are on the pedastal of glory and we are number one in their glossy eyes, but in the end, we are here before the men, and if they go we are still here. We came in this world with the love of our family, our friends but mostly the love of ourselves- why should that all be disregarded for the loss of the love of a man??
Don't miscontrue my lovely ladie kin, i am in love with a man who has hurt me in the past (and now all is forgiven blah blah blah... i have upper hand tho *yay me*), even though that has happened i am not a hardend bra-burning non shaving feminist out to ruin the love between men and women, i am here to remind us ALL, we are strong, we are resilient to whatever they do and we are will move on. And if all else fails- there are vibrators. Over and out. The sisterhood has spoken.
- posted by The ANgRy Sisterhood [email]
hmmm....ditch him.....ditch him and make him crawl back to you, if he doesnt...forget him. Actually... better yet.. just forget him....this guy is no good... he just likes the feeling of having a gf without the commitment.. and having someone to wait and pine over him... Its clear he just wants to get his dick wet with as many trusting women as he can. Its time for you to stop being one of those....
- posted by Paulo Saint Dominique your friendly neighbourly clairvoyant... [www] [email]
i agree with miss angry sisterhood...like her, i was there when all this started (not literally of course!) i was very happy when BFF found someone that made her happy and someone that measured up to her expectations...but it's true what they say...if it is too good to be true, it probably is...when he did the first stint i got angry with him but then he suddenly did a 360 turn and made BFF excited, happy, smiley and all the giddy stuff that happens when someone shows you so much attention...i was happy for BFF but remained angry for you...hell! i even dreamt about punching you in the face and i could feel the anger when i woke up...now i know why...you just showed your true colours...why did you do this to her? she gave you 100%+ and you only gave her 40%, yes you did all of those nice things...to what? to lure her in and kick her to the ground when you felt like it? she is not some crash test dummy that you can play around with and bash around to see what will happen...i don't hate you anymore i LOATHE you! you scum of the universe!what you did to her was so low...you should have just told her upfront what you were about and not have lead her on...and i don't buy into that "i have an issue with the lovey dovey emotional things because of my ex" crap...if you were man enough you would have risked everything for her and would have forgetten your fears but instead you dragged it out and you broke her already fragile heart...i was getting used to seeing BFF with a smile on her face for no reason at all...and i was glad that she is getting her faith in men back...thanks for ruining that scum! you give men everywhere a bad name...anyway BFF, i hope this incident doesn't completely wipeout the faith that you had...remember...you deserve the best and nothing but the very best...and that you are destined to be with someone...this is just another bump along the way...i just hope that whoever he is comes soon ..
- posted by teddykiller
P.S.
NOBODY MESSES WITH MY BFF!
- posted by teddykiller
lovey.. you know what I think from the start. But I'm a cynical wench.. so there y'go..
Let me leave you with this to ponder on.. Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love..
and I'd also say this Stercus accidit - Shit happens
So move on woman! This one is not worth hanging on to.. Heal yourself first before doing anything else.. Re-Discover Yourself.. Love xox
- posted by Morcheeba
I AM 110% with you Sisterhood. Dump him...he is no good. Good thing you've seen his true intentions before you gave your all. I AM SOOO DAMN PROUD OF YOU MY DEAR B!!! Remember our chat sessions??? He can be either of the 2. Too bad he is LAME ASS LOOSER who will never know what true love is. What's with the do-all-the-fun-stuff-no-attachment? That is B&%%$*&@!!! You gave him the benefit of a doubt. I mean giving someone a chance to prove himself is just right. But to be fooled again and to subject yourself to this kind of treatment by this LAME ASS LOOSER once you have seen his true intentions is a mortal sin. You call that ETERNAL DAMNATION sweetie! I know I may speak like I don't understand the bizarre things that love makes us do. That is the reason I am saying this to you...because you have to hear it the same way I hear it from you. You are a very talented, sweet and loving lady. WE ALL DESERVE BETTER! Cheers to our "guy-after-Mr.Big-will-come-soon".
- posted by snipereyes [email]
You don\'t sleep with a woman and constantly communicate, call sms whatever if it\'s just a flinf.
What an asshole.
- posted by pixelkitty [www] [email]