YOUR THOUGHTS
06 February 2012: emptiness
observations for today
i've been living a very routined life.
it's been bugging me that i actually know that i've been living it.
i get up in the morning, not looking forward to it most days recently.
i think i've reached my point when i know what i want in life and now have all that, but my personal contentment is non existent.
i've learned to appreciate things and people and i have around me, i've stopped yearning for things or people that i don't have.
i have everything that i need and yet when i look in the mirror i can't see anything. i stare and i stare and i feel so empty.
i heard from someone wise..."what's the point of having everything you need and success in life and not have your family to share it with"
i think i know what it means now.
i miss my family around me terribly. i miss having my mom nag me, i know she does that cos she cares and it's her job as a mom to nag. hehe
im 26 and im proud to say that i want to be with them again. i wouldn't dismiss the thought of moving near her and my sister anytime soon.
a close friend also said i need someone to love. but i figured i have enough love and blessed to pass it on to my family and friends. i also figured it's my turn to be loved and taken care of.
at the back of my head it's saying... maybe it's time for someone to come in my life and share that much awaited love and respect.
i also thought maybe it's not a personal thing, as in it's not the love of my family or that special someone in my life.. maybe it's about sharing what i have with those who don't.
so i also thought of doing some community volunteer work. i thought of going to soup kitchens on a weeknight and help serve to the homeless.
maybe that will fill the gap that's missing in my heart.
to ponder onwhat do you do when you feel empty?
recognise that feeling empty is just a feeling. nothing more.
feel it and then move on.
all feelings result from thinking.
negative (bad) thoughts make you feel bad (eg;empty).
replace all negative thoughts with positve ones.
this is my simple solution.
Stop fearing that you will be left alone in this world.
It won't happen.
- posted by mr.b
When I feel empty, it's usually when I haven't given myself enough "me" time, so I do stuff like go for a day-long walk, have a long hot bath with a good book, buy tea instead of making it, and fill the house with candles before sunset, then turn off everything except the stereo and play some relaxing music, do some yoga and take time to watch how the house changes as the day darkens and night is replaced with the warm glow of the candles. But that may not be the sort of "me" time that is good for you - make time for yourself to pamper yourself and have the time and brainspace to enjoy/not feel guilty about it. That is good.
- posted by Andrew [email]
when i feel empty, i cry my heart out. sounds crazy, but it's such a good way to release a lot of negative thoughts and feelings inside you. crying is like being in a meditative state of mind...and when the tears roll out...man, what a release! i also go to church (when there's no mass) and pray ...it's nice when a sacred place is quiet and you have this chance to have a one-on-one conversation with God. you can pray at home too but i find that going to church gives me a reason to leave the house and go to a destination for solitude and prayer. it also gives me a chance to reflect and realize how miniscule my problems are compared to the problems of the world.
- posted by yvonne your cuz [email]
i have a beer or a scotch, and a cigar.
- posted by db
A little grass goes a long way....
- posted by legend [email]